exhausted.

im exhausted. dont mistake this as a i didnt get enough sleep exhausted because i truly did get enough sleep, i did. but mentally and emotionally i just feel drained. i feel annoying. i feel useless. all i want to do is cry but the tears wont come. so i just sit here exhausted at 11:20 at night wondering if i should go to bed but knowing that if i do ill either sleep too long or not at all. im exhausted and its taking its toll.

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