dear depression, let me introduce myself, before you showed up, i was a happy, carefree girl who loved dancing, listening to music and just being herself. then you showed up. and everything changed. i stopped dancing, i closed myself off, i couldn't bring myself to get out of bed some mornings, and others i would pull myself out of bed to feel like i was drowning. i met your friends. ED and anxiety. they told me lies about myself, they made me second guess everything. they made me extremely self conscious about how i looked, and made me limit everything to become "beautiful". you made me feel like i was being choked and drowned but no one was around to help. you made me feel numb no matter what i did. made me feel useless, like i didn't belong, unwanted, unloved. you told me sweet, smooth lies and i believed them. every single one. when i started on medication to help, you told me that i was weak, that no one would love me because i had to take medicine to do simple
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