apologies

im sorry. the only words that seem to come off my lips now. i have always hated those words, its always felt like a pity me sentence. ive said it at least 12 times in the past hour. im sorry. im sorry for trying to be something im not, im sorry for trying to change, im sorry for speaking up, for speaking my mind. im sorry. now it seems those are the only words i can say.

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