its been 24 hours since i found out the news. 48 since it happened. this feels like a bad dream but no one can wake up from it. when did a nightmare become reality? when will this nightmare end
you told me to be myself so i was. then you told me i was too much so i stopped being myself to keep you around. you didnt like that and told me i was too fake for doing that. so i started showing my true colors a little bit at a time and you told me i needed too much attention. so i stopped. i stopped messaging you. i stopped caring. i stopped. because i cant put up with the whiplash all the back and forth you do gives me.
family is not always blood. blood is not always family. family is not always safe. sometimes your chosen family and found family is safer than your blood family. realizing you were no longer safe for me was one of the hardest pills I ever had to fucking swallow. family is not always blood and you are no longer my family.
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